Tick tock

I'm losing time for myself.

I promised myself I'd update this blog regularly and I haven't been able to do that at all.

Second semester is taking up a lot of my time and energy.

I don't understand why I've felt so exhausted these past two weeks.

It's like something invisible has been sucking the life force out of me.

Every time I get to school, I wish I was home and in bed instead, while every time I get home, I wish I was out doing something useful.

One thing I really want right now is a ticket to some place other than here.

I need a breather. I need to get away from it all.

Man, that sounds really selfish and self-serving considering how sembreak just ended two weeks ago and the semester has barely started.

But I can't help it. I feel like I'm not ready to face everything yet.

I wish I could just fast-forward to Christmas break.

I don't even know why I'm typing this post like this.

I'm starting to feel a little better though.

I wish that feeling could last much longer.

I seriously need it.

For they will break the boundaries of our fear.

So it's half past 2 AM right now and once again, I can't sleep. The only difference this time is I feel like writing. There are so many thoughts in my mind and I wish I could write about them all just so I don't have to think about them anymore but of course that's not really happening (whew talk about run-on sentence). I guess what I'll write about now is something a bit more interesting than the rest. ☺

All of us have this sort of plan in our heads of what we're going to do 5 years from now or 10 years or 20. We've all mapped out what we're going to be, where we're going to be and all things related to the future. You're probably thinking right now that what I'm leading to is what my plan is for the future. Well you can turn that frown upside down because that's not what I'm going to talk about. Too dull and predictable. And okay, maybe I also don't want to write it down now so I don't jinx it. Hihi. 

Now you're thinking, what could I possibly want to talk about then? Well, let me start with a question..

Every person on this planet has a dream, right? 

Yes, yes, it's a corny question but if for some reason you haven't given up on me yet then please do continue ☺

We all have our dreams. But the thing I really want to talk about is something that most people end up not talking about because of shyness or whatever other excuse comes up. 

What I want to talk about is.. Our impossible dreams.

Yep, there I said it. Impossible dreams.

Those dreams which might seem silly to other people or might even surprise them because they never considered that we could dream of such things. 

Well, it's really late and for some reason, I feel like writing down my impossible dreams. Maybe not all of them but those that are so impossible that they make me feel happy just thinking about them if that makes sense☺

This is in no particular order okay. Just whatever comes to mind at this very moment. Hmm.

First impossible dream (which I believe is shared by many) is to fly. We're all familiar with it. You know, just being able to spread your arms and soar to the heavens. Ahhh. What a dream. Truly wonderful if it could come true ☺ 

Just close your eyes and imagine for a minute that that dream wasn't impossible. You're at the edge of this really gigantic mountain and you can see the whole world below you. You spread your arms and jump off. And you're flying. Flying as free as a bird. And you feel that magnificent rush of adrenaline, power and liberation. The thrill makes you laugh out with joy. And you can see all the glory of the world below you. All the lights, sounds and people.. Just pinpricks at your feet.

Isn't it just beautiful? 

Hmm, second impossible dream. 

To be part of this big-budget Hollywood film. Oh c'mon, don't deny that you've never thought of that for one second! I mean, just think. What if you could be part of a really amazing big-budget film like let's say.. one of the Harry Potter films or Avengers or Lord of the Rings (Return of the King, since that was my favorite of the three hehe) or Mission Impossible 4 and yes you get the picture. I don't know about you but that sounds pretty amazing. Hard work I know but oh so worth it! Just seeing all that brilliance put together for a film and seeing how great it turned out on the big screen? That's already such a huge reward for me. 

And it's not just getting that one-time chance. I'm about to share something which has been kind of a secret of mine.. 

So yes, I'm quite obsessed with anything and everything connected to film! Surprising, you might say but it's very true. Over the years of reading up about facts and trivia that happen during film making and the whole process and what not, I've gained a huger appreciation for everything. And I'm just so interested! The fact that it's a very trying business but somehow, they still end up amazing people with some works of pure brilliance. It's just such a remarkable thing to me. I know that I don't know as much as I would like to but oh god, if given the opportunity to be a part of something like that.. It's really such a secret dream of mine (which is obviously not a secret anymore to whoever is reading this). Hihi ☺

Okay I kinda sidetracked right there, sorry. I just couldn't help it!

So, impossible dream number three. I guess it would be getting to spend even just a month in most, if not all (okay wow, I'm getting carried away again haha) the countries in the world! You have to admit, that dream is such a huge one but again, just think about it! What if you could spend a month in all the countries you wanted to go to? Holy guacamole. From let's say, France to Spain to Greece to Egypt to South Africa to Brazil to India to Japan and so on and so forth! Over a hundred countries out there in the world filled with all sorts of people and interesting cultures. To be able to live that dream over a lifetime would be just one of the best things in the world. I get speechless just dreaming about it. Haha.

Impossible dream four.. 

To make a huge discovery that changes the world! Vague? Hmm. Think along the lines of discovering something really big. Like.. The mystery behind the making of Stonehenge. Or finding the ruins of Atlantis (if it really did exist). Or figuring out how the pyramids of Egypt were built. Or a cure for cancer. Unspeakably huge things that would just change everything. Again, such an incredible dream right? 

Okay, I have so much more dreams in mind but I'll share just one last dream! 

Impossible dream number five.

To be fluent (as in - read, write and speak) more than 10 languages! Ugh I would feel like such a badass if that came true. Maybe it's not as impossible to other people (geniuses, spies and all those other cool people) but I mean c'mon, I've got to be realistic. Would I really be able to accomplish that? I'd like to dream so. Haha.

So that's that. I guess I better sleep now. I'll just end this post by being really predictable and saying..

What's your impossible dream? ☺

5 Little Things (Day 1)

Okay, I know that last January 31 I said that I would try doing a 30-day challenge and I was supposed to start the next day, but then I didn't have time to do it. I haven't had the time to update my blog for 3 days actually. So tonight, I'm gonna post those 3 blogs which I wasn't able to do + my blog for today. Bear with me please hehe ☺

Day 1 - Five ways to win your heart

Wow, what an interesting start to this 30 day challenge hahaha ☺ There are a lot of things that I find appealing or definite turn-ons but the 5 things I'm gonna list now (in no particular order regarding importance) are those traits/characteristics which popped into my head first. I guess that just means that these traits/characteristics are some of those which I value the most.

① Having the ability to make me laugh. 

     ✈ This is definitely important to me because I'm someone who always enjoys a good laugh. I always appreciate it when someone makes the effort to cheer me up or make me happy. It actually doesn't take that much to achieve that because I'm someone who thinks that it's the little things that matter ☺ Just knowing that I could have someone who would never fail to make me smile at the end of the day or make me laugh till my sides hurt - that's something I would really treasure.

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② Being able to carry a good conversation.

     ✈ This. Honestly, I can't stand it when I talk to someone and we end up talking about nothing really. I really hate having conversations which are just made up of overused fillers like "What are you doing?" or "Are you hungry?" or "Are you sleepy?" and you get the gist.. 

I enjoy having conversations with substance. It doesn't mean that we have to talk about serious things all the time. What I mean is that those conversations that we have should be those which help us just learn about each other more and more. It should be a conversation that has direction and it doesn't die out and end up in an awkward silence. I mean, I don't really care what the topic is about. What I care about is if I feel (after having that particular conversation) that I've learned more about this person I'm talking to. That's what a good conversation is for me. 

(c) http://www.pasiones.es/el-poder-de-las-palabras/

③ Being someone who has a love for food. 

     ✈ I know, it sounds pretty vague. I mean, who doesn't love food? I'm sure almost everyone does. (Those who don't, all I have to say is.. WHY?) Anyway, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm someone who would be willing to spend one whole day just trying out different kinds of food. I'm super adventurous when it comes to it. I don't know, food just interests me so much. This is gonna make me sound like such a fatty but, if you suddenly want to surprise me and you want to be sure that it'll make me happy, then I gotta tell you that food is the way to go. Really. Oh and if you know how to cook, that would such a big bonus. Hahaha ☺

(c) http://www.123rf.com/photo_6101587.html

④ Being someone who loves being around his family and who has a good relationship with them.

     ✈ What can I say? Family is very important to me. I can't imagine being with someone who isn't family-oriented or who doesn't like being with his family. I'm very close to mine and the way I was brought up is definitely the way I would want to bring up my own kids. Truth be told, I believe in the idea of falling in love and being with someone because you know that that's someone you want to marry someday. You don't fall in love and think that "Okay, one day we're going to break up". I mean, what's the point of that? You fall in love but you know that you don't want to marry the person? Then that's not love but just infatuation. The reason I brought this up is that I hope that the next person I fall in love with is someone I would want to marry someday, at the right time. And that person should value family because I would want to be able to raise a family with someone who values it as much as I do. Another thing is I value my family's say when it comes to different matters concerning my life. I trust their judgment because I know that everything they do is for my own good and happiness. Knowing that the person I'm with also feels the same about his family is something that would make me feel safe. It's that thought that would also make me feel like I made the right choice.

(c) http://www.fbcba.org/index.cfm?id=19

⑤ Having a good relationship with God.

     ✈ Lastly, I want to be with someone who loves God as much or even more than I do. I want to be with someone who can make me a better person each day and I believe that that can only happen if you have a good relationship with God. My parents raised me to put God above everything else and though I struggle a lot with that (even more so now; I'm really trying to be better though), I want to be with someone who helps me strengthen my faith in Him. At the end of the day, God always does what's best for us. I want to be able to give back to Him and thank Him for all that. To do that, I need someone who knows how important that is.

(c) http://www.123rf.com/stock-photo/praying.html

So there, those are 5 ways to win my heart (ugh that sounds so cheesy & corny .___. but yeah, that was the challenge for day 1 hahaha)☺ 

I hope that even though my blog was kinda chatty, it still made sense ☺

Counting sheep.

"It's time to go to bed."

"But Mom-"

"No buts! You're a growing kid. You need to rest."

I remember when this used to be my reaction every time that I needed to go to bed. I would practically be forced to, by my parents, because I was a "growing kid" after all. 

I'd be enjoying my day and doing things that young kids my age simply loved to do. Watch television, play computer games (those games on CD-ROM okay, not games online which kids nowadays are obsessed with), and read my favorite books. 

Bed time usually signaled the end of that for me. And I'd always meet it with frustration.

How ironic is it that the situation has been reversed now and sleep is something I constantly long for.

Gone are the days when I would dread bed time. In fact, it even seems a lifetime ago.

When I simply want to put things off, I sleep. When I want to shut the world out, I sleep. When I want to stop thinking about things that trouble me or consume my thoughts, I sleep.

Sleep, sleep, sleep.

Even the word itself has a lovely, relaxing sound to it.

It has become a welcome escape. A fail-safe even.

Just imagine seeing your bed after a long and tiring day. You drop your bag and take off your shoes. 

Grabbing your favorite pillow, you slowly sink in the sheets.. 

You curl your body slightly to follow the contours of the pillow you're cuddling. The cool air lulls your mind to drift into peaceful thoughts. 

At first, you can still see everything with clear detail; but give it a few minutes, all distractions will be tuned out. You'll move away from the reaches of reality and enter a world where dreams are real. 

You revel in it without a care in the world, because you know that you are free.

(c) http://t-extraordinaire.tumblr.com/

Doesn't just imagining it make you want to sleep?