She remembered.

(c) Michael Vigliotti

I am standing straight and proud, smiling like a happy girl would; yet I might as well be drowning. The brown eyes which used to regard me so warmly now look at me quite impassively. I wonder, do mine convey the same amount of indifference? Or am I failing at this miserably and are my emotions seen quite plainly on my face? I look away and take a deep breath, telling myself to fight this.

I glance back at my companions and silently breathe a sigh of relief. No one seems to have noticed that one minute of weakness I displayed. No one knows, but me. This is good. This shows that I can do this, that I have enough strength to get through this alone, no matter how lonesome that sounds. This is a solitary journey after all. I see those light brown eyes looking at me again and I grin, though everything else inside is hurting.

And on the 12th day, she stopped.

So I've basically given up on ever finishing the 30-day challenge which I set out to do ages ago (surprise, surprise). I don't know, I guess it was sort of a phase. I didn't even get to half of it and I grew tired of it already. Or maybe I'm just lazy. 

With that said, I've decided to get back into writing again. And by that, I mean writing about whatever comes to my mind at different moments. For now I'm done with writing through answering questions. So the posts to come after this one will mostly be random musings or probably my attempts to write creatively ☺

Starstruck (Day 12)

Day 12 - Five guys whom you find attractive (another long overdue post, I admit)

(Warning: Before you read any further, I feel that I have to warn you that this post will be extremely girly. You'd probably get super annoyed if you don't like reading about people writing about their celebrity crushes. Okay? Okay. You have been warned, haha.)

Okay, so this will be a really a fun post to make!

I've decided to list 5 Hollywood celebrities whom I find really attractive. Obviously, they are just some of the many good-looking celebrities out there. I just decided to list the first 5 people I thought of. You don't necessarily have to agree with me, but for some reason, they make my list haha. Of course I'm including some photos and some of the reasons why I have celebrity crushes on them, hehe ☺

(Gonna list them from youngest to oldest)

❶ Logan Lerman

Okay where do I even begin? Logan Lerman is definitely my biggest crush!

It's not just because he's really good-looking but because he's such a funny and talented guy too. He acts, he writes, he plays in a band (he knows how to play the guitar and the keyboard) and he directs his own comedy shorts ☺

Also, every time I come across videos or articles of interviews with him, I find myself liking him more and more. He's a self-confessed geek, it's cute ♥ Hahahaha.

In interviews, every time an interviewer asks him about how he deals with all the girl fans out there, he always says that fans will probably be disappointed because he's really shy around girls. (For some reason, I find that adorable.)

Oh and he's just a year older than me!

I swear, the first photo just makes me swoon every time I see it ♡

➋ Alexander Ludwig

So, he's probably not as well-known as the other guys on this list but still, I find him really good-looking. And he's one of the few celebrities close to my age :)) Like Logan, he's also a year older than me.

For those who don't remember, he was Will Stanton in The Seeker: Dark Is Rising. He was such a kid there! And now, of course, he has become more known because of his role as Cato in The Hunger Games movie (will write about this soon!).

I admit, I didn't really have a crush on him when I saw him in Dark Is Rising. He only caught my attention when I came across the news that he had been cast as Cato. I'm a huge fan of the series (read the whole series around 2 years ago) so of course I was intrigued and excited to see if he'd pull it off. If you've watched the movie, I'm sure you'll agree with me when I say he pulled off Cato's cockiness. It was so amusing to watch especially since his role as Will Stanton was so different.

Oh, fun fact! He auditioned for Peeta's role (which Josh Hutcherson eventually got) and then was cast as Cato. I think they made the right choice.

He's a gifted musician as well as an athlete (he water skies, plays basketball, tennis and ice hockey).

Lastly, he is also a model for Abercrombie & Fitch.

Now for the photos! Be as amazed at his transformation as I was ☺

Then (as Will Stanton):

Now:

➌ Zac Efron

Not much needs to be said.

I mean, c'mon. He acts, he can sing and dance, he's a gentleman and he was such a sweet boyfriend to Vanessa.

There just has to be something wrong with him because he's too perfect. It's crazy, haha.

So much photos, I know (how embarrassing hahaha)

➍ James Franco

I have to say, I couldn't decide between James Franco and Ryan Gosling because they're both wonderful. I decided to go with James though because I am in awe at how talented and intelligent this guy is!

First off, he is an amazing actor. Truly. He's been nominated 34 times for various awards (and even for an Oscar!) and he has won 14 of them. He has appeared in an eclectic range of films as well. Lately, he has been trying directing.

Now, like I said earlier, he's extremely intelligent. Can you believe that he once took up 62 course credits in a quarter as compared to the usual 19? And he did this while acting! Many of his colleagues have said in interviews that his ability to focus is incredible.

He is a talented mathematician and even interned at Lockheed Martin. He has a BFA in English from UCLA, 2 MFA degrees (in writing) from Columbia and Brooklyn College, respectively; and a 3rd MFA (in film) from NYU. He also received his undergraduate degree with a GPA over 3.5/4.0. He's currently teaching film for a graduate class, aside from working for his upcoming films.

Oh, he's also a painter. Some of his work was displayed for a time at the Glu Gallery in LA and he had his first European art exhibition in 2011 at Peres Projects in Berlin.

Here are some articles:
http://www.chron.com/life/article/Star-student-Actor-James-Franco-accepted-to-UH-1611305.php
http://www.vanityfair.com/culture/features/2008/12/franco200812

Okay, I know this is a lot of information but c'mon, doesn't it just make your jaw drop? @-)

➎ Orlando Bloom

He is 1/3 of one of my favorite celebrity families. He and Miranda Kerr make such a good-looking couple! And Flynn Bloom has to be one of the cutest celebrity babies ever, aghhh.

I remember seeing how supportive he was of Miranda during the 2011 VS Fashion Show + he's such a sweet husband too (here's an example hihi - http://www.justjared.com/2011/11/04/orlando-bloom-framed-his-love-letters-for-miranda-kerr/#more-680346)

And yes, I've seen some of his interviews. He has such a dorky laugh, it's really adorable :)) It was during one of the times he was on Ellen's show (here's the link - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kz6v5SHpyf0).

He seems like such a nice person and yes, I think he's attractive as well. I mean, c'mon, if a guy can pull off (and really well, I have to say) a long-haired blonde wig, that is really something. Haha.

 

Aren't they such a lovely family? And c'mon, isn't Flynn Bloom such a cutiepie ♡

Hallelujah

Finally.
After more than 2 weeks, I finally have the time to update my blog again. It's a great feeling, really.

This whole month has frankly just been really crazy!

Loads of papers to submit and just an endless pile of school work to accomplish every night for the past 2 weeks or so.

I'm really thankful it's finally over (well, at least before the next school year starts)☺

With that said, it still amazes me that this school year has gone by so quickly. Too quickly, in fact.

Today was my last day of regular class as a college freshman (aghhh, I still can't believe it!). It blows my mind every time I think of it.

I can't believe I've survived this year.

It's definitely been such a wonderful experience ☺

The people I've met, the new places I've gone to and all the unforgettable moments have made this school year pretty awesome ☑

Only 3 (hopefully 2, if I get exempted from ES finals) days of finals to go and I can finally say hello to summer break! ☀

I'm so excited. Summer 2012 is really looking up ♡

Oh and before I end this post, let me just say that I'll finally get to continue my 30-day challenge (which I haven't been updating for the past 2 weeks. Definitely long overdue haha)

Check out my next post for Day 12 ☺☺

Meet the Pavinos! (Day 11)

Okay, so this post is really late. Two weeks of not blogging, wow haha! School has just been so crazy and it's like my workload never seems to lessen. 

Well, I really wanted continue so I'm finding the time to write again now. Hopefully I get to post again tomorrow. Anyway, here's day 11! ☺

Day 11 - Your family

My family is amazing. Seriously. I'm so, so thankful that God blessed me with them ☺

I'll start by talking about my parents.

My parents are incredibly loving, patient and hard-working. They definitely gave my sister and I a wonderful childhood. They've always been so supportive of us both and they've never failed to show us how much they love us. They've always put me and Kaye first - always sacrificed and did as much as they could to make us happy. They are just so selfless and it makes me feel like I'm the luckiest girl alive. They've also brought me up to love and respect God above all. I'm grateful because I have a strong foundation of faith, thanks to them.

Another thing I admire so much is how wonderful their marriage has been all these years. Not once have I ever seen them fight or exchange harsh words with one another. They have always treated each other with respect and kindness. They have always remained patient and affectionate with one another as well. Their love for each other is one thing I really hope I get blessed with in the future. It's because of that love that our family has grown closer through the years. It's because of that love that we are happy and content ☺

 

Now, I'll talk about my sister. 

My sister is the best. She's the sweetest and kindest person I know. Ever since we were little, we've never had a major fight. I think the worst we've been through is just tampuhan (and it hasn't ever lasted long). I just find it so hard to stay mad at someone who's always been so loving to me. Every day, she does little acts of kindness that make me feel so special. She puts up with my immaturity and weirdness as well. To be honest, sometimes, I think she should be the older sister. Even though we're 4 years apart, I've always seemed like the younger one because of how serious she is and how immature I am (haha yes, I really am). 

I'll admit, I bully and tease her a lot but I guess it's just how I show my affection to her. It's because I know she understands that's how I really am. She's the only person in the whole world who knows exactly how weird I am. She's the only person in the world I feel completely and truly comfortable around. I don't need to pretend around her at all. There's no need to. 

I love my sister so, so much and I know that I really am blessed to have her. I wouldn't want to replace her with anyone else. And I just know that even when we grow older, we'll always be really close (or hopefully even closer than we are now). I know she's always gonna be there for me and I will always, always be there for her too. Every time she feels unsure of herself, I just want her to realize how great she is. She says she looks up to me but in truth, I look up to her. She's smart, beautiful, sweet, kind, funny and understanding. What more could I ask for in a sister, really ☺

 (Haha ok I'm so cheesy, but it's fine because I know my sister deserves it hehe)

(Isn't she just beautiful? ♡)

The Random 10 (Day 10)

Day 10 - Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play

⓵ All We Are - Matt Nathanson
⓶ Gotten - Slash (ft. Adam Levine)
⓷ Friday, I'm In Love - The Cure 
⓸ Good To You - Marianas Trench (ft. Kate Voegele)
⓹ Over - Jimmy Eat World
⓺ Ocean Wide - The Afters
⓻ Constant Conversations - Passion Pit
⓼ Glad - Tyler Hilton
⓽ I'm Ready, I Am - The Format
⓾ Science Of Fear - The Temper Trap

Beyond the books and boards (Day 9)

Day 9 - How important you think education is

I'll start with saying that education is important. 

It's one of the prime factors that affect the growth and progress of any life and nation. It's used to mold minds, enrich talents and gifts, and give people the strength they need to face greater challenges in life. 

However, it's not solely limited to the world of schools, universities, books, teachers and pens. 

Education is the art of learning, itself. 

Academic and scholarly knowledge (like what we get from schools or universities) are just some aspects. We can be educated in the arts and sports, in technology and mechanics, in writing and reading, and more. 

Education is the bridge that leads us away from ignorance. It helps us achieve a higher purpose in our lives. It's not just important; it's also vital and irreplaceable.

It's a privilege that must not be taken for granted. Its importance is highlighted all the more by the fact that not everyone in the world has the resources or luck to obtain it. 

Education is the start or the steppingstone that brings us possible success in the future. However, we must keep in mind that no matter where we receive our education or how much of it we receive, it is always up to us to decide what to do with what we have and how to act because of it. 

Ultimately, our futures will be paved by the decisions we make.

(c) http://pptfresh.com/education/

(Whew, feels like a school essay haha)